S: The man from whom the demons had gone begged that he might be with him, but Jesus sent him away, saying, “Return to your home, and declare how much God has done for you.” And he went away, proclaiming throughout the whole city how much Jesus had done for him. Luke 8:38-39 (ESV)
O: I’m trying to imagine what that must have been like for this freed man – begging to stay with You, and then being told he needed to stay there to tell others what God had done for him. And then to do it – to leave You.
I know this was necessary – necessary so he could share with his fellow people where You could not (because they didn’t want you there) – but if I’m being honest, I don’t know that I could do it.
Not today anyway.
A: Today, I am a mess. Today, I just want to curl up in Your lap and get away from this world that is falling apart – this world with its current pandemic and contradicting disjointed messages from leaders about the best way to handle it.
I can’t do today, Jesus – not without You.
So this idea of being asked to leave You to go and tell others about You sounds impossible to me today.
But, I know that it was, and is, necessary.
And, I know, too, that I have the incredible gift of Holy Spirit with me. So I never have to leave You, because You will never leave me.
But, today, Jesus, today, I just need to sit with You a little longer.
P: Please don’t make me go out there yet, Jesus. Not until You fill me again with Your Spirit. Not until I’ve cried all my tears of sorrow, grief, and confusion out – and the joy of Your Spirit comes rushing over me.
Moses said, “If your presence doesn’t take the lead here, call this trip off right now. How else will it be known that you’re with me in this, with me and your people?” Exodus 33:15 (MSG)
We need You, God! Make Your presence known to us! We are nothing without You, Lord.
Thanks for hearing my prayer, Daddy. Thanks for answering, for responding before the words even form in my heart. Thank You for coming in close when I need You most.
I’m better now…because of You.
Always because of You.
I love You, too, Daddy.
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