Restore My Vision, Lord

S:  “Who here qualifies for the job of overseeing the kitchen? A person the Master can depend on to feed the workers on time each day. Someone the Master can drop in on unannounced and always find him doing his job. A God-blessed man or woman, I tell you.” Matthew 24:45-46 (MSG)

O: All in. Regardless of situations, circumstances, feelings and emotions. That is the heart You are after.

A: My greatest struggle has always been – and seems to still be – with laziness and apathy. I have not been very good about leading this group, about “feeding the workers on time each day.”

This current world pandemic has made me distracted, even depressed. I wonder how that happens to one in whom You have given the gift of faith and hope?

My word for 2020 (20/20 the year of perfect vision) is “promise.” The promise that You are Who You say You are, and that You will do what You say You will.

It is evident by my lack of zeal and how despondent I have become that my eyes have drifted from You and onto the waves of this storm engulfing us. It’s evident in my attitude, my words, and my actions.

It all feels surreal. And yet this is our reality now.

A decision must be made. Where do I set my heart – where do I rest my eyes – on the waves, or on the Way Maker?

“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.”

P: God, save us! Save me, Father! Restore me, and make me strong, firm and steadfast. I am clinging to the Only One Who can bring me hope again. Help my eyes to see clearly once again. I need You, Jesus. Come quickly.

Photo by Bran Sodre

One thought on “Restore My Vision, Lord

  1. Kimi, I love your vulnerability and honesty. I think it’s very easy to look to the left or to the right, but don’t be so hard on yourself, your heart is in the right place or you wouldn’t even have realized you weren’t looking at Him, Or for a moment you were only glancing at Him. I’m praying for you to go back and meditate on your own words for yourself. “Withhold all judgement, forgive quickly, extend grace and do it again.” Don’t be something hard on yourself! You are doing a great job! ❤️

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