S: “Do you want to stand out? Then step down. Be a servant. If you puff yourself up, you’ll get the wind knocked out of you. But if you’re content to simply be yourself, your life will count for plenty.” Matthew 23:11-12 (MSG)
O/A: Sometimes it seems like the only way to minister to others is from some sort of platform – the only way to reach more and more people. For a long time I thought this was what You were preparing me for – a place or level I had to “get to.”
But the air is thin at the top, and I felt like I couldn’t breathe.
I was trying so hard to please You – “performing” to make You proud. Seeking Your approval but missing out on the “living” part.
Stepping down from my formal ministry position was a very painful decision, but I knew You were with me. Even when no one else could see it coming, I could.
And so could You.
In these two years outside the church “bubble” You’ve taught me what it means to be a real servant. You’ve given me fresh perspective. You’ve given me ears that are fine-tuned to Your Spirit’s whisper. By removing all the other distractions, You gave me the most beautiful gift of all.
You taught me how to be content with simply being me.
Me with You.
You with me.
And the rest fell into place. Aligned with Your will and found in Your hand.
Now there is no other place or position that I’d rather be – than Me with You.
And You with me.
P: I love You, Jesus. Thank You for rescuing me. Thank You for teaching me to see myself as You do – I kind of like me now. Thank You for that. Thanks for taking me into that dark hidden place where I knew it was safe to be broken – in the shadow of Your wings – and where I knew You would put me back together. I praise You, God, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well! To You be the glory forever and always!
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