S: Jesus said, “Even after all that I’ve taught you, you still remain clueless?” Matthew 15:16 (ESV)
O: When I read this, I can’t help but picture Your frustration. And while I LOVE seeing this humanness in You, it also unsettles me a little bit. Because if You are frustrated with Peter, then certainly, You can be frustrated with me. Right?
Frustrated – expressing annoyance; irritation; the state of feeling annoyed, impatient, or slightly angry.
There is nothing wrong with these feelings! Afterall, they are just feelings. But somehow, in my mind, feelings are tied to love. And if You are annoyed with me, or worse, slightly angry, it means You don’t love me. Writing this out now, I can see the lie for what it is.
I get annoyed with people (especially MY people), but it doesn’t mean I don’t love them.
You get annoyed with people (especially YOUR people), too (I mean, I’ve read the OT), but it doesn’t mean You don’t love them.
Even here I see You still loving them through it. Still explaining it to them. And that’s love, isn’t it? Not giving up on someone. Not walking away. Instead, walking them through it. Helping them understand.
A: Anger is an emotion. And I am made in Your likeness which means I would have the same emotions as You.
But how I choose to respond to those emotions is what matters.
“In your anger do not sin,” (Ephesians 4:26).
Let love win.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”
I realize there are many times I don’t want to express myself or what I’m thinking – especially when I’m frustrated – because I don’t want the other person to feel bad or think I don’t love them. But, again, writing that out makes me realize this says more about my own insecurities, than it does about my true concern for the other’s feelings.
I think if I hurt them, they won’t think I love them, or worse, they won’t love me anymore.
But I can’t control how others choose to respond, and at the same time, I can’t just vomit every thought I have based on my emotions without a filter.
But it’s okay for me to feel. It’s okay for me to be frustrated.
Frustration ≠ withholding love.
Just like I see here. You were frustrated with Peter, but You didn’t withhold anything from him. You still explained the parable to him. You still helped him understand.
And certainly, You still loved him.
Just as You still love me.
No matter how many times I cause You to send a SMH emoji to the Father.
P: Jesus, thank You for helping me see a lie I’ve been believing. Thanks for showing me how to “feel” my frustrations. Thank You for the ability to feel and even HAVE emotions! But for my sake, and the sake of others, please help me to handle my emotions appropriately. Thanks for helping me. Sorry for all the times I might cause You to deep sigh or roll Your eyes. Thanks for not giving up on me. I love You.
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